Hurrying Up To Wait

I have been through the mill when it comes to Hodgkin's this trip. It troubles me. My doctor is ordering pet scans for next week. I am having a lot of pain in my upper region; near my lung. I hope if a bone marrow is needed; he will have the courage to order me to Phila. It is my only chance and I am afraid he will just order more chemo. I am really scared right now. To anyone who reads this, pray for me. Pray for my piece of mind. I have had a terrible time with depression this trip through cancer. Please pray if the bone marrow is needed, I will get it. I just don't think he wants me to go through anymore. But, without it, I fear I will die.